Has it every happened to anyone here that you've entered an altered state by complete accident or by hapharazard while not meditating or anything of the like?
This has been happening lately within the past week and, honestly, these states go from despair to being totally blank.
The blank state is pleasant, at times, but can be quite terrifying and deeply depressing as well.
Personally, I'm quite scared for my mental health.
The last time I experienced these states without meditation or any attempt to enter them I was literally dissociating from reality because I felt I had no control over my own body. It was a difficult and terrible time but I blamed others for putting me in that position.
Now I seem to be entering a similar state alone, without being pushed over the edge by anyone. What is happening??
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one evening (unfortunatelly, i wasn't "on point" to write the exact date...) i was drinking my half-litter of vodka & smoking & i 've just "done my thang" in Wio/PAUL 's forum (i call the place "the shelter") ... & it "came over me" - i can only remember ... like "i was all-in-onenes', but different&unique" ~ but, that would be only a "second-hand" sensation ~ the "shit"(as in hip-hop slang →the shit=the real thing) was ... i felt-like, for about 3 seconds,... i UNDERSTOOD EVERYTHING.
- it last' for only 3 seconds, but i still keep a blurry rememberance of the... "sparkle-burning-in-flames"(like a "fsss" firecracker which doesn't explode...)
Personally never been drunk and don't like alcohol in general. It tastes bad, man. People keep telling me a glass of wine with a fancy meal is a must but then all that happens is that I avoid fancy meals in general.
And drugs... that's some scary shit. Never done THAT either.
Why would I want to lose control?
it burns everything: mouth, throught, stomach, viruses, illnes' - all gone instantly.
&, smockin' weed is also unharmly...
- few friends had a trip to a monastery (eastern, buddhist or hindu - i don't remember) & one of them was a wealthy guy who was supposed to return pretty fast in town to offer the crown, or ring - whatever - to his she-nephew at her wedding... but, diving deep in his trance / devotion, he didn't leave & stayed in that stade for a few days...
- each & every listener of this story und'stands whatever he/she wants...
= for example, i wonder ... "why the fuck was that crapy wedding so important, that a high-level being had to impersonate that dude just to keep a bunch of laymers "in 'eyr parameters"? → what if the guy was returning from that monastery & told 'em "yeah, i was with GOD"... 'ey were about to hate him & considere him a lunatic -so, fuck 'em."
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