@Brian This may seem obvious. Of course, it may seem odd when someone has seen what you yourself have seen and experienced what you have experienced... but what holds someone back so much? This illusion seems so real and yet we are nothing.
When one sees what you have seen holding on to any of this seems stupid. You have seen many things and experienced so many things that many could not fathom.
Forgive me. I am quite desperate. There is a kind of crisis that always returns. I have so much and so many loving people in my life, no future really though. But the people I love and care for make me want to stay here; they are, after all, so easy to be attached to and I am by nature the most loyal of dogs. A very bad person in essence but very loyal. I want to wake up and get out and many days I wish I did not even exist. And I never know what to do. I love my family. They are so kind and loving to me. I love my boyfriend, he is there, unconditionally and apparently forevermore.
Surely this must be something everyone here has experienced to some extent.
There are no shortcuts. Obviously not. And that includes family and friends. Letting everyone go and even disappointing and, most pathetically, hurting some of them along the way.
Then the problem comes when you look at yourself in the mirror and see that all you do is destroy everything and everyone.
Everyone you will ever be close to will hurt you and to some extent betray you eventually. No one is infallible and no matter how wonderful a person may seem there's always a little spark of darkness that willl inevitably make a surprise appearance and reveal the true monster within.
It's alright to be the victim most of the time. Less responsibility but all the pain. But when you're the one causing the pain, inflicting it and you realize it, the guilt becomes too much to bear. No one likes to hurt others, the guilt is too great to bear. Not to mention the very thought of hurting someone else is too heavy...
Mademoisele LUNA, YOU are too hursch on YOURSELF - i bet my life YOU are a great "family&friends" person, & keep it this way... what if YOU can't tell some of them about re-inc's & stuff from HERE ? don't tell & keep on loving them. & the stuff on clones, ufos, reinc' ... focus it in HERE, as simple as this...
my brother and future sister in law was asked to be a member of skull and bones . they declined but still follow many beliefs. my sister in law is now working for the u.n was a republican now a liberal (think it had a lot to do with many men in her family coming out gay) the gay thing broke her. she does not like trump..thinks he is racist. skull and bones do not seem to be as playful as shaun the sheep. but I get what you are saying. key word being sheep.
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This may seem obvious. Of course, it may seem odd when someone has seen what you yourself have seen and experienced what you have experienced... but what holds someone back so much? This illusion seems so real and yet we are nothing.
When one sees what you have seen holding on to any of this seems stupid. You have seen many things and experienced so many things that many could not fathom.
Forgive me. I am quite desperate. There is a kind of crisis that always returns. I have so much and so many loving people in my life, no future really though. But the people I love and care for make me want to stay here; they are, after all, so easy to be attached to and I am by nature the most loyal of dogs. A very bad person in essence but very loyal.
I want to wake up and get out and many days I wish I did not even exist. And I never know what to do.
I love my family. They are so kind and loving to me. I love my boyfriend, he is there, unconditionally and apparently forevermore.
There are no shortcuts. Obviously not. And that includes family and friends. Letting everyone go and even disappointing and, most pathetically, hurting some of them along the way.
Then the problem comes when you look at yourself in the mirror and see that all you do is destroy everything and everyone.
Everyone you will ever be close to will hurt you and to some extent betray you eventually. No one is infallible and no matter how wonderful a person may seem there's always a little spark of darkness that willl inevitably make a surprise appearance and reveal the true monster within.
It's alright to be the victim most of the time. Less responsibility but all the pain. But when you're the one causing the pain, inflicting it and you realize it, the guilt becomes too much to bear. No one likes to hurt others, the guilt is too great to bear. Not to mention the very thought of hurting someone else is too heavy...
& the stuff on clones, ufos, reinc' ... focus it in HERE, as simple as this...
cat meme i ate your hamster - in google images...
what does Audrey Hepburn have to do with it? curious...she was a client of mysister in laws father actually
I did not mean to use my name sigh..laughing