We all only remember what is convenient. Pisses me off. I can't regret my horrible actions because I don't remember them. When I thought I was an adultress in a past life, when I went delusional psycho-bitch, I suffered greatly due to my imagined downfall as a human being. I suffered having been an adultress. But as far as my REAL known past lives, I never, ever committed such a deed. I should also add I was only fourteen, and you can imagine how well I dealt with the whole situation (NOT!). I couldn't get what I thought I had done out of my mind and suffered so much due to the thought of all the people I hurt that I descended into eating disorders that led to an eventual suicide attempt. Everything just spiralled out of freaking control.
I was in wars. So were all of us here! But I can't remember killing people. I can't feel guilty about something I don't remember or don't know about. Get my drift? This is why we all get stuck. We can't fix our mistakes because we're so deep in this fucking shithole that none of even remember why the hell we're here in the first place. The swearing was intentional, it is meant to show how upset about this I am.
I remember walking down a stupid flight of stairs. Looking up a stupid book in a stupid court yard. Looking at some stupid art on a stupid (actually, it was a very nice) ceiling.
These are all stupid things. Stupid, trite memories. Why the FUCK do I remember stupid, trite, trivial little things when there's so much crap going on in this dumb little blue ball?
This planet is all so small, it's like a little town and we treat everyone like crap. Don't little towns call for nice hospitality? What stupid place are we living in? Yes, I'll kill you in this life. Then, when we don't remember each other in the future I'll marry you. Uh huh. This place is fucking tiny and everyone knows everyone else. Is treating everyone with a little decency TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?
I'll say it here. GROW THE HELL UP. EVERYONE, STOP ACTING LIKE FIVE YEAR-OLDS HAVING A TEMPER TANTRUM. STOP IT. HAVE A LITTLE RESPECT AND DECENCY.
YEAH. YOU'RE NOT THE CENTRE OF THE FUCKING UNIVERSE. GET OVER IT. Why does everyone have so much trouble understanding that? What the HELL is so hard about UNDERSTANDING that the world DOES NOT revolve around YOU. Ambitious, stupid, greedy, inane, immature little shit. Insignificant little ant.
That goes to EVERY little ant on this stupid little planet. Myself included.
As for the Downton Abbey stuff, the old idea of a genetically refined superior ruling bloodline is anathema to the newly emerging robber baron criminal classes.
The Devil doesn´t want us here, he know´s we are not convertible, but he makes everything to put a barrier for us to not reach the light. We are stuck in a midplace, right smack in the middle of nowhere.
About the military allure, it´s there, I feel it, but in a detached way, no longer addictive. Better not to remember our military-power liasons, they might be covered in blood, not nice.
20 And Noah builded an altar unto the Lord; and took of every clean beast, and of every clean fowl, and offered burnt offerings on the altar.
21 And the Lord smelled a sweet savour; and the Lord said in his heart, I will not again curse the ground any more for man's sake; for the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth; neither will I again smite any more every thing living, as I have done.
A historic unit of distance frequently mentioned in the Bible. The word comes from the Latin cubitum, "elbow," because the unit represents the length of a man's forearm from his elbow to the tip of his outstretched middle finger. This distance tends to be about 18 inches or roughly 45 centimeters. In ancient times, the cubit was usually defined to equal 24 digits or 6 palms. The Egyptian royal or "long" cubit, however, was equal to 28 digits or 7 palms. In the English system, the digit is conventionally identified as 3/4 inch; this makes the ordinary cubit exactly 18 inches (45.72 centimeters). The Roman cubit was shorter, about 44.4 centimeters (17.5 inches). The ordinary Egyptian cubit was just under 45 centimeters, and most authorities estimate the royal cubit at about 52.35 centimeters (20.61 inches).
The inhabitants of the city started to build a great stage-tower zigguarat, which they raised to some considerable height and then were unable to complete. The massive remains were a visible reminder of the ineffectual attempt which tradition recorded to have been accompanied by discord and consequent migration of many of the population. This meager historical record explains why the sacred writer did not mention the nature of the sin which led to the frustration of the grandiose design. But his deep conviction of God’s overruling government of the world taught him that the attempt had been displeasing to God and the narrative suggests that the sin was one of overweening human pride and self-sufficiency. Gnosis based upon intuition is one example of self-sufficiency meaning any psychic task will always be left half undone.
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We all only remember what is convenient. Pisses me off. I can't regret my horrible actions because I don't remember them. When I thought I was an adultress in a past life, when I went delusional psycho-bitch, I suffered greatly due to my imagined downfall as a human being. I suffered having been an adultress. But as far as my REAL known past lives, I never, ever committed such a deed. I should also add I was only fourteen, and you can imagine how well I dealt with the whole situation (NOT!). I couldn't get what I thought I had done out of my mind and suffered so much due to the thought of all the people I hurt that I descended into eating disorders that led to an eventual suicide attempt. Everything just spiralled out of freaking control.
I was in wars. So were all of us here! But I can't remember killing people. I can't feel guilty about something I don't remember or don't know about. Get my drift?
This is why we all get stuck. We can't fix our mistakes because we're so deep in this fucking shithole that none of even remember why the hell we're here in the first place. The swearing was intentional, it is meant to show how upset about this I am.
These are all stupid things. Stupid, trite memories. Why the FUCK do I remember stupid, trite, trivial little things when there's so much crap going on in this dumb little blue ball?
This planet is all so small, it's like a little town and we treat everyone like crap. Don't little towns call for nice hospitality? What stupid place are we living in? Yes, I'll kill you in this life. Then, when we don't remember each other in the future I'll marry you. Uh huh. This place is fucking tiny and everyone knows everyone else. Is treating everyone with a little decency TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?
I'll say it here. GROW THE HELL UP. EVERYONE, STOP ACTING LIKE FIVE YEAR-OLDS HAVING A TEMPER TANTRUM. STOP IT. HAVE A LITTLE RESPECT AND DECENCY.
Pissed off. MAJORLY pissed off.
YEAH. YOU'RE NOT THE CENTRE OF THE FUCKING UNIVERSE. GET OVER IT.
Why does everyone have so much trouble understanding that? What the HELL is so hard about UNDERSTANDING that the world DOES NOT revolve around YOU. Ambitious, stupid, greedy, inane, immature little shit. Insignificant little ant.
That goes to EVERY little ant on this stupid little planet. Myself included.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=smE1kjEsdZk
Stupid. Self-righteous. Self-centered. Uncivilised. Egotistical. STUPID. There. Rant done. Over and out!
20 And Noah builded an altar unto the Lord; and took of every clean beast, and of every clean fowl, and offered burnt offerings on the altar.
21 And the Lord smelled a sweet savour; and the Lord
said in his heart, I will not again curse the ground any more for man's
sake; for the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth;
neither will I again smite any more every thing living, as I have done.