Kalachakra

Brian

OskrZS

i dont understand the vril thing.. :( 

i just want to be a normal dude with a regular job, if its reiki ok, which i see hard here where i live, as im shit to everything also.

if i never get to that experience again (kalachakra) its ok.

is that hard to get to jesus and the father?. 

OskrZS

you see teacher, i cant keep coming here being under this kind of fear and stress(because of my dumbness), and  pretend that i understand what you say, and keep going with my crap. what kind of silly game is this am playing.

 i will deny and reject my evil programming, since i dont want to end like my cousin, and i wish i could have helped him, this means i dont want to waste more time playing dumb.

if its not kalacakra its ok, i need something to overcome this mediocrity and ignorance. To me it seems a sin to have you as a teacher and waste it all.. only shows how loser i am, since i believe others would have done better instead.

Perhaps this fear to lose my mother and grandma is just pure selfishness because deep i know im a loser who wont survive alone outthere five minutes.

sorry for dumping my stuff here and for make you read this. 

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Zen non-thinking - What is that?

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Star NRG running on applause is NOT what it seems?

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"I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves."

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OSKRZS, YOUR hard self-criticism on YOURSELF  really grieves/saddens me... it's not at all as YOU say, & i only hope ' within YOUR inner-self YOU know (deep-down, as it's said...) YOUR own significance as a human being.

DIVYNE BE WITH YOU, TEAM !

Brian